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look at this big fat lizard, god i love him, it always makes me so happy to see one on my walks, i live in the coast, kinda tiny city, wikipedia says 12,3   km² but i don't understand numbers like that, so it means nothing to me. what i do understand is that we share the space with the seagulls (gaviotas, if what to use their preferred name) and i love them. they're a little evil and a menace, like every other bird, but my friends nonetheless. i am scared of them but i will always be happy to share the beach, the sun and my potato chips with them.  the other day, one did me a solid.  i work at a cafe, we were closing, or trying. if you've ever worked at a cafe, you know people never let you close. picture this: the end of a very long shift, i am overstimulated and extremely tired and still have to clean everything, the whole place is a mess. we are 3 people, we could really use another 2 sets of hands, i am the one in charge so every decision goes thru me, there has ...

  this is the first released song of marta sango's future first album.    now i know the chances of you knowing marta are almost zero. she's a small, local artist, to the point where i thought i could be lowkey doxing myself by sharing her music here. but i just can't hold back !!!!!! !! i am so excited for this album !! ! i've been waiting for so long and i love her so much ! !! !!! !   she participated on a reality show/survival music competition back in 2018. she didn't win the show, but she won the hearts of many people.   she makes the music i crave, everything she writes is so pop and so much fun, i get trapped on loops with her songs many many times a week.    for the last 8 years she's dropped 8 singles and a couple of colabs, is not much but it's still very impressive how she hasn't missed once ! everything is good and everything is marta. she has a very personal sound, and she literally single handedly brought back the old spanish pop vibes b...

 tw: mentions of self-harm and blood in a jokey light manner   ❀  i have this problem, i can't stop turning smooth healthy skin into open wounds. i'm not even talking about picking on pimples and black dots (tho that's how it started), i'm talking about straight up picking on regular skin until i bleed. face, chest, arms, thighs. i can't stop.  this, as you can imagine, leaves a lot of scars and marks behind. the most visible ones, the ones that people notice and, therefore, comment on, are in my face. they hate it very much and they often pity me.  don't get me wrong, i know this is probably under the self-harm umbrella in one way or another, i agree is a terrible thing to be doing to myself, and i would be better off if i got some sort of help. i understand is sad and it makes sense that people would feel pity looking at it.  but ! that is not the reason why people pity me. they pity me because they think it's ugly. they think i look ugly with the s...

  this song just came out, and these were some of the teaser photos for the album,         i can't start to convey how much i love when kpop concepts go weird. i love spooky, nightmare/dream core aesthetics in general but no one does it like the creatives minds behind kpop. so this is now an appreciation post to show you some of my favorite concepts thru the years. but first, here's a collage i made in 2024, in honor of creepy kpop ! !!    ☆   to start with the queens of this concept themselves: f(x). back when they were still active they were my favorite thing in the whole world. i was just a sad teen back then and they truly made my life better in so many ways, i wish it didn't end the way it did but i will never forget them, they will always hold number 1 in my heart.       and, of course, the ones that took over: red velvet. my current favorite kpop group.          also one of my favorites artists, bibi...

it's strawberry season ! not for much longer tho, summer is already very close, watermelon is about to take her place...... before the season is over let me show you all my strawberry trinkets !  first ! my bed:   lots and lots of strawberry themed and shaped cushions and blankets  2 little ceramic containers: one shaped liked a strawberry, the other like a strawberry jam jar. they used to be candles, now they hold a little creature each !   4 ! trinket dishes. 3 of them are shaped like a strawberry: 1 (very round) is full of painted rocks; 2 (very strawberry like) is full of pills and dry plants; 3 (handmade and very wobbly) is full of rings and 2 littlest pet shop game coins. the other (4) is a tiny tin bucket, full of my hello kitty collection and 2 sticks.  a hand-painted miniature ceramic cow: is decorated to look like a strawberry.  the top of my water bottle straw: it has a strawberry cap !   plushies !! a little brown dog wearing a strawberry ...