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  this is the first released song of marta sango's future first album.    now i know the chances of you knowing marta are almost zero. she's a small, local artist, to the point where i thought i could be lowkey doxing myself by sharing her music here. but i just can't hold back !!!!!! !! i am so excited for this album !! ! i've been waiting for so long and i love her so much ! !! !!! !   she participated on a reality show/survival music competition back in 2018. she didn't win the show, but she won the hearts of many people.   she makes the music i crave, everything she writes is so pop and so much fun, i get trapped on loops with her songs many many times a week.    for the last 8 years she's dropped 8 singles and a couple of colabs, is not much but it's still very impressive how she hasn't missed once ! everything is good and everything is marta. she has a very personal sound, and she literally single handedly brought back the old spanish pop vibes b...

 tw: mentions of self-harm and blood in a jokey light manner   ❀  i have this problem, i can't stop turning smooth healthy skin into open wounds. i'm not even talking about picking on pimples and black dots (tho that's how it started), i'm talking about straight up picking on regular skin until i bleed. face, chest, arms, thighs. i can't stop.  this, as you can imagine, leaves a lot of scars and marks behind. the most visible ones, the ones that people notice and, therefore, comment on, are in my face. they hate it very much and they often pity me.  don't get me wrong, i know this is probably under the self-harm umbrella in one way or another, i agree is a terrible thing to be doing to myself, and i would be better off if i got some sort of help. i understand is sad and it makes sense that people would feel pity looking at it.  but ! that is not the reason why people pity me. they pity me because they think it's ugly. they think i look ugly with the s...

  this song just came out, and these were some of the teaser photos for the album,         i can't start to convey how much i love when kpop concepts go weird. i love spooky, nightmare/dream core aesthetics in general but no one does it like the creatives minds behind kpop. so this is now an appreciation post to show you some of my favorite concepts thru the years. but first, here's a collage i made in 2024, in honor of creepy kpop ! !!    ☆   to start with the queens of this concept themselves: f(x). back when they were still active they were my favorite thing in the whole world. i was just a sad teen back then and they truly made my life better in so many ways, i wish it didn't end the way it did but i will never forget them, they will always hold number 1 in my heart.       and, of course, the ones that took over: red velvet. my current favorite kpop group.          also one of my favorites artists, bibi...

it's strawberry season ! not for much longer tho, summer is already very close, watermelon is about to take her place...... before the season is over let me show you all my strawberry trinkets !  first ! my bed:   lots and lots of strawberry themed and shaped cushions and blankets  2 little ceramic containers: one shaped liked a strawberry, the other like a strawberry jam jar. they used to be candles, now they hold a little creature each !   4 ! trinket dishes. 3 of them are shaped like a strawberry: 1 (very round) is full of painted rocks; 2 (very strawberry like) is full of pills and dry plants; 3 (handmade and very wobbly) is full of rings and 2 littlest pet shop game coins. the other (4) is a tiny tin bucket, full of my hello kitty collection and 2 sticks.  a hand-painted miniature ceramic cow: is decorated to look like a strawberry.  the top of my water bottle straw: it has a strawberry cap !   plushies !! a little brown dog wearing a strawberry ...

i have this little notebook were i write down and rate everything i watch and read each month. back when i used to have twitter i made threads reviewing the movies and i miss doing that so much ! so i decided to blog about it instead. i was thinking every 4-5 movies i watch i will make an entry talking about them, so here goes movies i watched on april + may so far. (light spoilers ahead)         FORBIDDEN FRUITS (2026):  ☆☆☆☆ i watched it for the same reason everyone else did, to experience all these iconic women working together. i knew it was gonna be witchy but i didn't know much about the plot, so i went in blind, really.   you can probably tell by the rating already but i very much enjoyed myself, i had so much fun !! the movie was quirky and weird, every single piece of dialogue was iconic and funny, the costumes were super cool, the characters were very well written but also super silly. i feel like the movie took very seriously not being ...

i dont have time to post as much as i would want to and it makes me sad ! !! ! i have a post about strawberries in the works that i'm excited to share but i just can't find a second to sit down and properly do it ! in the meantime tho,  tw: dead animal (bones, skull). i went for a walk with my mom and my dog, instead of taking the usual route we decided to take a different path because it was a while since we took it and we wanted to check it out.  we really love it, it's a pretty dystopian place, it's a half built neighborhood. lowkey spooky and it has very weird vibes. it's almost abandoned. very few of the houses are fully built and with people living in it, some of the houses are half built and some others are just the idea of a house. the streets are half made with a bunch of holes and overgrown plants, there's streetlamps and traffic lights but they don't work. all the construction materials are laying around and the protective fences are all worn out,...