bald at the beach

 i hate the feeling of having hair on my head.

the only thing i hate more is people's full attention on me. and thAt is what a shaved head will get you if look like a woman. idc if it's good attention (compliments) or bad attention (polite insults) it makes me so uncomfortable, my whole body blushes and my heart starts going at the rhythm of someone being chased by a rabid bear. "omg did you shave your head ???" "omg that's so brave, i could never!" "can i touch it ?" "why would you do that ?" "you look like a boy" "it looks so good on you, you should never ever grow it again" "nooo, i loved your hair"

and that's why most of the time i hold it back and let it grow until i can't physically take it anymore. yesterday i reached my limit. this is my third time shaving my head. actually, this is my mom's third time shaving my head. and it feels so nice. 

how i look like with my head shaved /pos

have you ever felt so overwhelmed you can feel every single point your socks make contact with your skin ?? that's how hair feels like to me. you know when you spend hours in a room full of computers and you get used to the electronic sound so you can't even hear it anymore but then you leave the room and you suddenly hear the silence ?? and it's so so nice and peaceful ? that's how it feels like to shave my hair.

anyways, right after shaving my head i went to the beach with my mom and my dog. we've had many many weeks of heavy rain and crazy wind, the ocean changes when that happens and it brings weird things to shore, or at least things that it usually doesn't bring.

my dog having lots of fun at the beach

this time there was a lot of fully black shells, i've been to this beach many mAny times before and the shells are usually leaning towards orange so i was surprised to see these ones. i can't help myself but to collect a few nature trinkets when i go to the beach so here they are.

black shells

and my dog kept finding these (photo bellow) and bringing them to me, it was all fun until i realize the reason why he could smell them was because the dead creature was still inside ! !! ew. i took some of them out to keep the shells, it wasn't a nice experience. 

but it made me think. what i usually find inside these little spirals are tiny crabs, you know, the hermit crabs. they're know for living inside a shell they picked themselves and they have to keep changing them as they grow bigger. but these creatures i took out of the shells were giving slug. ocean snail !

now snails, snails are known for making their own shells. that's their actual body. and so the thought that formed in my brain was: if these are actually ocean snails and they make their own shells, are the shells hermit crabs use: dead ocean snails ??? ?

so i did what it had to be done:

 

 Seashells are the exoskeletons of mollusks such as snails, clams, oysters and many others. Such shells have three distinct layers and are composed mostly of calcium carbonate with only a small quantity of protein--no more than 2 percent.

now, this makes a lot of sense: every single seashell IS part of the body of a sea creature. i knew that already, but never thought of it as the body remains of a mollusk ! it's a skeleton but on the outside ! it's like pinking up bird bones at the forest. and i knew this about regular snails so i don't know why i never stopped to think about it in ocean terms. 

and so yes, 

Hermit crabs do not make their own shell, they have to find discarded shells from snails (gastropods). Shells provide protection from the elements and predators, and retains water to keep their soft body and gills moist. A hermit crab cannot survive without a shell. 

crabs are walking around protecting themselves with the bones of a dead creature. they're like cubone (pokémon). that's very cool, i already loved them very much but know that i've actually stopped to think about it, they are very punk rock.

 

 

i wonder how many other things i know as an unquestionable fact, that would feel crazy if actually stop to think about them more deeply.

anyways, wish me luck !! i'm going back to work monday morning and i'm gonna have to endure all my coworkers and customers comments about my bald ass head.

 

 

 

 

 

sources: 

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/how-are-seashells-created/ 

https://hermitharbor.com/hermit-shells